Because I was doing fertility to assist me in getting pregnant, I was being monitored very closely. Luckily for me I didn't have to go as far as in vitro to get pregnant, but that can be a whole other post on its own. But we'll leave it at, I needed help because of my age and my cancer treatment. I feel so lucky it worked and the medical knowledge exists, even if it is a little pricey, it's so worth it.
So I went and got a blood test done to confirm my pregnancy. When I got my levels back they were pretty high and based on some internet searching, I knew not to get my hopes up but that the numbers could possibly mean twins. So I patiently waited for 6 weeks to roll around to go back to the fertility clinic so they could see the sac and possibly the heartbeat. Such a long 2 weeks!!
I always thought that if someone ever told me I was having twins I would fall off the table...not really the case when I was doing fertility and for some reason I kind of just had a feeling there would be 2 in there. So when I went to do the ultrasound that day neither Shane or I were very shocked when the doctor said 'there's one sac and there's a second sac.' The scary part was when he said 'let's see if there's a 3rd sac.' Luckily there wasn't. The thought of 2 was exciting, the thought of 3 totally freaked me out!
We saw both heartbeats and things were looking good. I officially graduated from the fertility clinic and they sent me home with a bottle of sparkling cider!
Here's the picture we took when we got home that night...notice Shane's hand on my stomach indicating we're having 2:
After that it was soooo hard to keep it a secret. I knew my family would flip out that I was pregnant, let alone with twins. We decided to hold out until my first official appointment with Dr. Langer, my ob-gyn. I was also dying to talk to Brigitte about it since she is pregnant and I had a million questions and wanted to compare pregnancy symptoms with her. I also held out and didn't say anything, but it was so hard.
Every night I would come home from work and talk Shane's ear off because I had been thinking of things all day and had no one to talk to. He was very good and patient in listening to me go on and on about how sick I was or wasn't...luckily I was more on the wasn't side, which actually kind of freaked me out into not telling anyone because I wasn't totally convinced I would stay pregnant. You always hear when someone is sick 'oh that means it's a healthy pregnancy' so what was I supposed to think when I wasn't sick?!?
So there I was pregnant, with Twins. What does this mean? I checked out a few books, did a lot of research and got myself prepared pretty fast for what type of pregnancy this might be, what we need to buy 2 of and what to do with 2 babies at the same time. I still have a long ways to go learning everything I want to learn.
Some days I still feel like I might be in a little bit of denial over what this all means, but overall Shane and I are so excited and feel so blessed to have 2 babies join our family and we're doing what we can to prepare. I feel so blessed after having to wait through chemo and the 2 year waiting period that we can jump start our family this way!
